I am in the middle of a depression and feel quite down. It is affecting my eating and my conversations with people around me. What is really bothering me at the moment as I await therapy, is the fact that I am having constant thoughts about an x boyfriend who I am sure is a narcissist. We have been together in one way or another for the past 28 years. He was very early in our relationship my one truest love. He never left his wife, I got married and have been married for 25 years yet off and on we still get together. It has never been about sex. We have never had sex. There is kissing and hugging and talking and that is about it. We have ended it again after being together off and on the past two years. If we have not been together we have been texting or phoning. We have stopped talking since Christmas and I am devestated. He is always on my mind. This is a man who was also carrying on on-line affairs with 2 other women while we were talking. I don't know how he keeps it all straight and how his wife of 30some years is still with him. Some one please help me ....I am obsessing about him and the fact that we are not talking and that he is with yet again another woman and it stresses me out. I need someone to talk sense into me because I cannot get into any therapy for almost 3 months.