All good responses, so I'll just offer my support for you. *hug* If ya need me, just PM.

It's pretty early in it, you have time to get out relatively easily and unscarred. The longer you wait the harder and more dangerous it gets, not to say it isn't dangerous now. Once you start something like this, as you know by know, it consumes you. Go talk to a school shrink hon, or rabbi or pastor if you're the religious sort.