oh yeah - what sunrise said is so spot on - i think you need some therapy goals .

i found i was just drifting along in therapy until i told my T one day "i wanna try things differently - i want you to help me fix x". so we worked on it (for just 2 sessions) and it got fixed, and it was amazing that i could spend 2 years doing jack all, and then in the space of 2 weeks have such significant improvement. it was a small thing, obviously (i just needed to work on my wake/sleep cycle) but it meant big things in terms of energy etc.

i had about 11 things i wanted to get through, but unfortunately T ended up being a royal ($*)@#(^ and i terminated.

but definitely the next T i start up with is going to get a list of things i want out of the endeavour. i will break it down into immediate concerns, short term and finally long term stuff and get perverse pleasure out of crossing them off my list as they get accomplished.