Oh no, hun! I am so sorry! I know that words cannot take away the hurt you are feeling, but know that we are thinking of you and are here to talk when/if you need it.

The only thing that helped me was realizing that my mom was no longer suffering or in pain anymore. The cancer had ravaged her body, she was soooo skinny, had no hair, took tons of pills and was miserable. So....just remember that Jasper isn't in pain anymore. He would want you to take the time to grieve that you need, but then enjoy life and live it to the fullest.

My heart goes out to you!