Thanks kt. It's diff. reasons, really. I stay up late and sleep all day, so sometimes, I am tired, and just think, to heck with it, I'd rather sleep. But later, I regret missing the appointment. It feels rude to him not to call, and also I feel the desire to talk to him about some things. I really want to talk, so I call back and get another appointment. Another reason is money. I am unemployed and seeking a job, at the moment. I am on the sliding scale fee, so it is cheap, but when you are broke, every little bit matters. So I have second thoughts because of the cash. Recently, I also missed because after I made an appointment, I found out that my niece had a play she wanted me to attend, and I wasn't going to be able to do both. Why didn't I call him to explain? I'm honestly....unsure. Then the other day, I had something else I wanted to do, that ran into my therapy time, so I missed therapy. I called back after the fact, explained and apologized, so my T rescheduled me for later in the day. Then I got a call from a friend asking if I could meet her. I don't get to see her unless I see her on her schedule, so I said yes and missed the T appointment. Again, I don't know why I never called to explain. I don't understand my own actions. Also, if talking to my T is important, why is it not important enough to crawl out of bed for? sighs* Anyway, thanks for the support. I really just have no idea what to say to him right now. And I am starting to feel guilty.