Welcome Ladystardust! Come on in, take your shoes off, get comfy and enjoy. This is a place that will help you and make you feel sooo much better.
I highly recommend that you see what docs you can go to with your insurance. You would be supprised with some docs and their commitment to you. I have two one for meds and a Therapist I can call them whenever I need to and they are there to help. They give me positive reinforcment and support.
I have suffered for at least 25 years and have just recently gotten help. My anxiety was something that I just put off and "delt" with, however it became out of control. I would highly recommend talking to the docs and let them help you. Be open to their suggestions on Meds, treatment, etc. Make sure that when you talk to them you are honest! If they ask about how a med is making you feel. Tell them exactly. That way they can adjust accordingly to you. Everyone is different and everyone reacts to meds or even Theropy differently. You can do it!
I would also highly recommend getting the "anxiety and Phobia workbook" This is a great book that can assit you with what you have going on.
Welcome! and enjoy