Yes, like the others have said: powerful post, and clearly put.
I ID all of this, when I feel uneard, or unresponded to by T. - the relationship moves into the imagination, so say in my head, or write all the things we'd truly long to be met and understood for, but ---- are blocked when the person is there in front of us.

Theres a problem here as I see it, you are wanting / needing to go deep. Asking the question, 'WHAT IS THIS?' ...
but then you're not getting the response to support your enquiry, which is healthy, its an honest and brave enquiry.

what do you think is the wisest course of action rap?

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