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Originally Posted by Anthony23
I keep thinking that If I persistently thought about it hard enough, wish for it long enough, that I would get a new person as myself. I'm not talking here about changing or improving who I am. I keep imagining and fantazising that I am someone else... someone I made-up inside my head, that of a fictional man's entire world as my own. I've built, augmented, polished his personal qualities (personality, character, virtues, temperament, dispostion, etc.), life-situations, environmental-setting bit by bit, over the years, that presently, I have sort of a running personally-tailored, self-gratifying movie in my head.
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Wow. I've never talked about this before (at least, I don't think I have), but I did a similar sort of thing in high school - I didn't really have any friends and spent a lot of time by myself. I liked to think of it as what a "next life" could be like, to make up for my not enjoying this one. (I know that sounds a bit childish, but never mind...) It was quite detailed, down to the names and personalities of the group of friends I'd have and the place I'd live, what I'd do at university, etc...I never mentioned it to my therapist when I was in therapy, because I was pretty sure it was just daydreaming to distract me from feeling lonely. The only times it possibly caused problems was if I was thinking about it when I should have actually been paying attention to something...luckily that didn't happen too often!
I'm not sure if I can give any advice on how to stop if it's bothering you - I kind of just grew out of it to an extent after I started university and found friends. I still catch myself thinking about it sometimes, but hardly ever any more.
Sorry I can't be more help, but good luck!
(By the way, DID is Dissociative Identity Disorder - there are various articles about it on this site, as well as a forum nearer the top of the list.
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