I have no support from my family. My mother is cruel to me in all ways. I am 23 years old and she treats me like I am infantile. With the situation in her life she has no room to judge me. She's a junkie who treats everyone like ****. She doesn't care for any one but herself. She's constantly bashing me by telling me I abondened my children (I left my husband, but still have partial custody of children). Recently my mother physically attacked me for sitting on her computer and filling out a job application. Twenty three years old and this woman continues to abuse me and treat me like dog **** on the bottom of her shoe. Would it be wrong of me to rid this negativity out of my life? I despise who she is and worse, who she has become. Yes, my mother was a horrible mother when I was younger. She abondened me when I was 12, left me as a ward of the state. I forgave her thinking she would love and support me, I did not look back. But how is this expected of me when she treats me the way she does? I almost hate her. Hate is such a strong description of my feeling, but dammit, I think I do.

Long ago I told ya'll that my sister had abondened her baby with me. Well, she did come back eventually, got her **** together for the most part.... but it is happening again. I've had that child for the last two weeks and everyday she asks me to keep him another day. Yesterday she pretty much implied that she couldn't do it anymore. I do NOT have the means to take on another child. Between me and my boyfriend we already care for three, with my nephew it's four. But I will NOT turn that child away, he needs me. I would get benefits for him, but I fear if I take those away from my sister...she'll starve. I can just never do enough no matter how much good I try to do.

I moved closer to my Mom and sister (they live a couple blocks from one another) and my life has turned into hell since. I have entered a depression from all the stress and hopeless negativity that radiates from these people....the people I call my family. What the hell?!?

You know, I run to my step dad, (the only half way rational one left) and he has lost all compassion too. My mother has sucked the goodness out of this man and turned him into a cold darwinistic a hole.

I feel alone here.... I just wanted to get that weight off of me... thanks for hearing me out.