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im kinna new here and im not sure if im doing this rite.
i have a girlfreind who said to me the other day that the flashbacks im having should be over with.
im a victim of Domestic volice typos, i lived with my ex over 15 years and ont our 3rd annivesrty he had a motorcyle acccindent in which he lost his left leg he also had a girl on th e bike who also lost her leg, she got a settlemnt and o'dossed. my ex hurt me in that he threw me when i told him that the marriage was over he picked me up and threw me agaist the wall in which i came down and hit the oak desks. he is a pagans meaning 1% motorcycle club, they taught him where to hit me so it wouldnt leave marks on my body,today i have Facet joint bone disease also other things tooo.
i have a question i love this women but the other day i was over her freinds house which this guy was abusing her.i was standing in the doorway and he tryed to come in the room i wouldnt let him pass and he came rite up to my fave like my ex did i felt so threathed and i was shaking so bad i called my girlfreind over and she got him outta the room,.that was last friday, friday nite i had so much pain in my stomach that my colon was has having spams they hurt so bad i couldn't get this guy out of my head and was having flash backs. i also tryed sleeping and for 3 days i couldnt slep all i saw was my ex. i have panic attacks when i sleep and i also have sleep apena.i wake up my hair so soaking wet from being so scared and afaird.
since 1999 my ex took all my freinds away from me in fear that they might be warned not to hang with me.i dont go out of my home and if i have to i opened up the door and start throwing up or in my van.i tryed talking to this lady telling her what PTSD is but she says i need to move on and i go to a group she calls them all nuts and asked me why do i hang with her and why dont i hang with the nuts.i also have major depresion, panic attacks anxity attacks i have no family alive and i findgin it so hard to find help or even find new freinds.she my freind hasnt called me since monday and im not calling her back,but i feel so lonley now..being a victim of abuse and afaird to leave your home its like living in hell....help please some one.
Last edited by Sens123; Feb 25, 2009 at 10:37 PM.
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