sometimes I think it becomes a habit.... if you are happy try to focus on that - ask yourself why you still feel you need to do it - maybe you will find an answer - mine was that I knew (not correct) that the bad feelings would alsway come back - so I was afraid -and instead of waiting for them to come back - i SI so that I felt ashamed and angry at myself bringing the bad feelings back - a self fullfilling prophecy
I hope you can work out a way to stop - take care P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet