{{{{{{{{{{{Tmac}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Just here to encourage you and to let you know I care. You're on the right track reaching out for help, Hon. That's the only way out of the mess you find yourself in. Seeking out a T is the best thing you can do to work through these problems you are having. Like Rasta said, he/she is a trained professional who wants to help.

Keep on keepin' on, Hon. You, too, will make it through.