I called the lawyer this morning. I have to really sit and think about it. I have not been able to talk with my doc about it. I know that I can't run forever, but that sounds like the best clue. Two nights ago he showed up at my house. I called the police, but they couldn't find him seeing he left before the cops got here. I spent almost all day in bed yesterday, then relized that I can't hide all my life. I just need to sit and think about everything and see how court goes on the 9th for the "real" order of protection. I know that with him breaking the tempory one he screwed himself over on that one. Just right now I feel like a little trapped mouse in the game of cat and mouse. Maybe I can go visit some friends out of state for a couple of days. Get my head on straight.

I have read all the posts and I just wanna say thank you for your honest support. You don't say things that "will make me feel better", you say what is on your mind.