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((((((((((OrangeBlossom))))))))))),
I know the pain you went through with your mother.....I recall my Mothers death just 4 years ago in January.....her cancer (vulvar) went through her body into her lungs & brain within 6 months after the surgery.
Sitting there holding her hands, telling her is was ok to let go so she could die because that was the only way she was going to get better like she kept asking me when she was "going to get better".
Go figure.....she refused to let me go to her Dr's appointments because she knew they were going to tell her everything she needed to know....kept asking ME when she was going to get better????
Sadly, we all want our parents to die with dignity.....we so badly want to see them with respect, dignity, & pride in our eyes.....& it seems that most of the time......that just doesn't happen that way.
I know that everyone has their time when they are GOING to die. No matter how many miracles happen in ones life to be saved, the thing is that we are not immortal & there comes that time when we die......just a fact of life is death.
I know holding onto a picture that isn't true eats at us & I am glad you were able to let go for the reality of what happened.....that is when our own healing can start.
I hope that now you can start lifing your life for you & your husband & hopefully get some peace that you have long deserved.
May you enjoy peace,
Debbie
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
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