That is a beginning horsecab...

I really don't know what to tell you...you already know what you need to know...your drinking almost killed you... Its a tragic way to die...since it is so avoidable...

Since you have been to AA you also know that this problem can be solved,,,but it does take a willingness to take suggestions and change...

This problem is fare easier to solve within the power of community...it is especially difficult to work through alone as isolation is an aspect of its cunning..

With Care,

Lenny