Today in T, I realized that all of these months have gone by with T "knowing" that I have parts, and me "knowing" that I have parts and neither of us telling the other person what we know. I think T was scared of scaring me, and I was scared to admit what was really going on with me.

Today he said "Hang on to how great this is - we admitted you have parts and neither of us ran screaming from the room"

Admitting it out loud has totally changed the direction of therapy. I did ask him if he's ever worked with ANYONE with DID before, and he said he had. It sounded like ONE person, though ?!?! Oh well, I love him and he loves me and it will be okay, I hope...

I told him I have a fear of him switching to only doing couples therapy and not working with me anymore...but then I said, "I guess I qualify for couples therapy"...and he said "more like GROUP therapy" lol

It feels good to laugh with T about things that are scary. I think he was trying to send me off into the weekend spiral-free. I would LOVE a spiral-free weekend. LOVE IT.

I'm off to big son's baseball practice, but I'll be back later to read and respond to all the threads from my PC friends...