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I think what Mouse said is true - sometimes we need to pull back in for a little bit, before we are able to push forward again...

When I feel myself rebuilding my walls, I always tell T. And we talk about it. I've also told him that I feel like there is a rope connecting my heart to his (yes, because I want to be sure to be The World's Most Vulnerable Client lol) and he will ask about the rope - is it still there? Is it thinner? Etc.

Usually talking about the need to rebuild the walls actually helps me to tear them down. T can help me see where that need is coming from, and he helps me, and then I don't need them so much anymore.

Therapy is hard, hard work. But it's worth it. Hang in there