truthseeker it sounds like to me you are willing to be the best u can be. when there are multiple issues like you have i'm sure it will take more time to untangle all the hurts and other feelings you have about each event that has brought you down.
are U seeing a T at the present to help you work through all this/jme, but that was the only way i could have gotten thru so mcuh of the confusion of so many things i had gone thru. we took our time and addressed each one by itself. that way it was far less overwhelming. my T also taught me coping skills i had never had before. i learned how to process the feelings in therapy and regain my "self".
i'm hoping maybe something i've said will offer you hope too. having a T really was the key for me along with meds, in my case.
please keep us posted on how you are doing, k? we do care and you do matter to us!!