I've had the stomach pains, migraines, stress aches and my neck's hurting from all teh stress.. It's been a pretty awful fday

Mum phoned earlier and I told her about my twin and adoptive family calling me fat and ugly, coz she asked why I was going to the gym, I said to keep fit and she asked who'd been saying nasty things... she then said "I hate the way our family is falling apart.. You're the only one of you kids that hasn't caused me any hassle/trouble at all. Your Dad would hate it too, I bet he's turning in his grave knowing wat his daughter is doing to her own twin.." This upset me because of my Dad not being here and made me feel guilty for our family falling apart, made me feel good because my Mum appreciates that, although I mightn't be able to answer her calls all the time or see her more than once every few months or so, I'm still a "good daughter to her" I still love her and carea about her and want to see her as much as I possibly can.. But then it made me angry because of my twin being so nasty about Mum, to our Grandparents, to me, about our Father and because of her being so damn stuck up..

I wish that my family, my real, true, loving, caring family could be just that again. Loving, Caring, A FAMILY!

I don't feel so good.. I'm right on the edge and I just know that I'm going to topple over if one more bad things happens