Thank you, horsecab!
Sharing with us has helped me to stay sober. I remember those dreadful days of being sick and ashamed and afraid.
It's one of the reasons I am fiercely protective of my sobriety.

I applaud your honesty and willingness to keep at it one day at a time.
May I suggest something? Tackle the booze first and as your head "clears" it will get easier to work through the other things. It may cause some real discomfort when you stop numbing yourself with alcohol, but try and remember it's actually a good step and a sign of progress.
Jme, but the important thing to remember is the call of relief...aka taking a drink...is very seductive, Very.
Use everything you can so that call goes unanswered.

Horsecab, it's a solitary path that you are walking. But you have companions (us) who are walking parallel paths of staying sober. When you falter, don't hesitate to say so. Sometimes taking just a minute or two to post here or call someone is enough to help you get by that tense moment of wanting to drink.
I spent a whole lotta time on the phone with my sponsors when I felt like crap, doubled up on meetings, and stomped my foot in frustration. There were days when I kept someone company when they were going through the same thing.
Give and take.

Peace and Power to you,
Cap