Hi everyone..just a little update on me...i know i havent posted much or even been to chat really...i have been working very hard to be healthy..i wasnt gonna say anything for fear of failure but here it goes....i saw my pdoc thursday...i have my medical release to go once again and try to go back to work....he said i seemed much better...wasnt sure i should go back to work but was willing to let me try....i feel anxious about it but also feel good at the same time...i dont think many know but i work with special needs children with downs and autism...im going back knowing come june i am leaving the children i have been with for 6 years..the school district has elimanated the program i work for.....this has been and was heartbreaking to me...im going back trying to see it as more time with the children i have grown to love....leaving them will be very difficult come june....but i really think im ready and need to make this move.....i know that the next 2 months every second counts...im banking on that to get me thru....it is so hard dealing with my mental illness and also the thought of losing my job and leaving these children...im hoping i can make it this time and make every last second count with these great kids......thank you to everyone who has supported me ..i hope one day to be able to give such support back.....know im thinking of you all and appreciate each and everyone of you.....