Thankyou.. I guess it's just knowing that so much has messed up.. A lot of it being my fault. Or so it seems anyway.

I want my Mum and step Dad to be my family, but there's just so much that they don't know.. I'm too scared to tell her I suffer with depression, anxiety, an ED, that I self harm and starve etc. I just feel like she;d go nuts about the self harm and try and get me to live with her so she can make sure I eat.. I don't know, maybe I'm just taking an idea and running with it.. I feel so crappy