My boyfriend and I just broke up about a week ago. But he had good reason to end things…he saw an instant message from another guy (my exes best friend who for the past month kept trying to get me to do something with him) in which it said: “so are you still coming over tomorrow?” in which I had replied “no my throat still hurts.” He had wanted me to go down on him. I didn’t want to, so I made up an excuse, because everytime I’d say no, he would just harass me…so finally, with my stupid thinking, I thought that if I just agreed to it, but never do it and just make excuses (like I was sick, or Cory was with me, or just something stupid) he would get mad and leave me alone…trust me, I now realize how stupid it was to think that. But I did, and I can’t control it.
Needless to say, I’ve talked to this guy for the past 3 months, and it was almost every day. My boyfriend and I have almost called it quits over him before because he didn’t like the fact I was talking to him…but I just thought he just wanted to be friends. Then about a month ago, he started bringing up sex, like I said..I did stop talking to him but then he started messaging me again and wouldn’t stop.
I know I messed up. And I had to move out of our apartment and everything. But I had never met this guy nor was I planning to…but I understand where my boyfriend was coming from in breaking up with me.
But I I’ve only had eyes for him the whole time we’ve been together…but he doesn’t trust me anymore. And I know how to regain some of it back, of course…I haven’t talked to the guy, I’ve blocked him on everything I have, and I’m going to get my number changed. I know I’ve messed up, but I want my boyfriend back…
He says he loves me still and does want me back but it’s just really hard for him to trust me. He says he can’t allow me to move back until he knows he can trust me…which really hurts, because I’m dead without him. L I’m miserable when I’m not with him. I just stayed the night with him, and it was the first time I was able to really eat, get a full nights sleep, and smile.
Can anyone give me any advice on how to cope and garner his trust faster? I hate being without him. I love him so much; no one understands how much this really does kill me. ):