Thank u everyone...for their replies...

"Mohit, do you have any brothers or sisters that can help with your expenses?"

yes i have one brother but he himself is a full time student end just earns enough to sustain himself so that he need not ask anything from my father...

I am really surprised that inspite of taking all antidepressants for 6 months;

I still have

tremor (hands and whole body shaking most of times for eg if i hold a paper or pen it will shake due to tremor)...

terrible crying spells for at times no reason...

terrible body ache...

heart racing and fearful

no proper sleep...i wonder of a sleep for last 2 years...

sometimes not even able to get up from bed...

terrible pscyhosomatic symptoms like extreme burning while urination...

i have been on so so many antidepressnats like stablon, duzella, domolite, lithosphere;
veniz; mirtaz etc etc...

Right now i am on venlafaxine xr 300 mg and mirtazapine 30 mg....

and the doctor insists that i continue taking this two every night daily....

there are numerous other symptoms as well like headcahes;backaches; horrible dreams;
dizziness; anger; suicidal urges........and the list probably is endless...

wonder willl i be able to be "normal" again so that i can be able to sustain economically myself bcz to do a job i must be somewhat similar to a normal person and have less of symtopms above..

i dont know whether life is clsoing door for me at 25 and whether its enough that i have lived in this world...