Myzen - But they are constant. I mean, when it's bad, I think about it all day everyday and I become preoccupied with it. It's like if I don't do it (run through the conversation in my head) then...geez, I don't even know. I just keep doing it.

I only have a measure of control whenever, and I know that this sounds weird, but whenever it allows me. Some days I have zero control, I wake up and my mind is already going. I will feel like my mind woke up an hour before my body and has been running ever since... and those are the days I almost go absolutely nuts. Other times, I won't think about anything for a few days (but this is very rare), or what I do think about is very moderate. Mostly I'm stuck in between, where it won't completely preoccupy me but I will still think about these things atleast every few minutes or so.

I'm just confused I suppose. Thanks for the feedback.