sorry Cab, i read this after signing out... well... the first issue i see in your statement is this statement that you feel you will never meet anyone... ever.....

i dont think this has to be necessarily true for you..... i believe in time, with help and care from someplace like this, you can get a little guidance on working out your feelings over this and you can believe in a real possibility that someone out there exists for you.. that you are not currently in a loving romantic relationship does not devalue you as a person to yourself or society.... you are still a valid member here and in your own life, with a willingness to search for better health.. that is why you came and why you stay...

i know in time you will get all the answers you are seeking here.. there are very intelligent and knowing individuals who are here offering advice, opinions and knowledge... PC is the place for answers