hi MUE, and welcome to pc. i'm so glad you found us. we're a caring community and i feel you will find support here.
as for your feelings about seeing the therapist. just be yourself and try to breathe deeply and calm yourself. everything will go fine. your t will help you get out those feelings you are having and help you deal with them, develop new coping skill, and untangle the confusion about the things bothering you.
i understand your fears cause i had them when i first went into therapy. it was the best things i did for myself ever!!! good for you for emailing your t about some of the feelings, etc you have. try not to feel miffed that he hasn't responded. maybe he's waiting for your first appt. before addressing some of these things. good luck and know that you are doing a good thing by seeking help for yourself and hubby. keep us posted, will u? we care about you.