((((((mixedup_emotions)))))))
Welcome to PC!
It takes so much courage to find and see a T. Feeling anxiety is normal. I still have bouts with feeling anxiety before T 3 out of 4 sessions.

And it sounds like you have a lot on your plate and a lot to sort through...Go at your pace and you will get to where you need to be.
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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
Thanks, everyone! I needed the hugs.....
Another thing that makes me hesitant is that when I first reached out to this counselor, it was a 'woe is me' case of dealing with my husband's OCD issues. Then, we had our first appointment with marriage counseling - and the therapist only guided the conversations and although I did a lot of the talking, my husband participated quite a bit as well.
Then, the second appt, my husband and I were facing each other and talking to each other, with a little guidance from the therapist.
The only constructive feedback that we got from the therapist was geared towards my poor husband who is tortured by his OCD and needs to get help for it. He recommended that my husband find a psychiatrist to get on the proper meds and then follow up with individual counseling. He said that he did not recommend using him as the individual counselor, because he felt he needed to be objective when it came to being our marriage counselor. He would do it if we asked, but he really felt that it was not the right approach.
Because of this, I am wondering if this appointment - with just me - has nothing to do with me, but is only a side bar visit related strictly to my marital issues.
I don't want to see another therapist....I took that major leap with him, and I feel good about it. I would be crushed if he told me that I should see another therapist.
I'm sorry I'm babbling. I'm just dealing with so many different emotions....
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I think you can be very clear with the T in the session and tell them what it is you are seeking. Since you only had 2 sessions that were couple sessions, the T seeing you individually would not seem to me a conflictual thing.
And I totally get not want to see another therapist...You already found this one, have put some trust there.
Good luck at your appointment. I hope it goes well.
~Searching