(((mixedup_emotions))))) Its so hard to lose a parent , let alone like that. What a shock it must have been. You really did need your husband beside you not only for you but your daughter as well.
It takes time to remember the good things. it will come....remember if you can he is listening and cares. Im sure he loved you too.
There is greif support groups you can go to if you choose
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your daughter
Muffy