Hello,I am a Volunteer Firefighter and after several tragic events over the past few months regarding 2 fatalities in 2 seperate structure fires,and a tragic accident at a Metal Coatings Plant,I have felt like on certain calls I just cannot go.I have had burst of anger for the past 2 months,and released that anger by yelling,kicking and throwing things.Sad part is all the bursts of anger occured in presence of my now ex girlfriend of 4 months.I did not in any way threaten to,or harm her.She,according to my Counselor provoked the anger by ignoring the signs of my illness,and not following the recommendation of my Counselor to not provoke me such in a way that would trigger an outburst of anger.I began to distance my self from her and she took that distancing as a sign of unfaithfulness to our relationship.She became suspicious of me and managed to somehow log into my cell phone account online,saw who i had called and who had sent me text messages,all whom were from friends of mine that she knows.She began calling these people late at night and demanding to know who they were,the male friends she asked if they were married and if so if they knew if thier wife and i were having an affair,which of course was not true.She blamed that on me due to me isolating myself from people.She had a complete nervous breakdown last week and was admitted to the hospital,yet blamed that on me as well.Back to the main topic here,can anyone else say that they have been involved in the the fire or emergency medical,or police services and found themselves due to a tragic incident feel you are unable to deal with certain calls,or situations,and therefore begin to pick and choose calls?