sens  i was once a victim like you so i do understand your fears. what i did was join a support group for victims of abuse. it helped me so much and i got the support i needed there. as a result i can now say i'm a survivor. yes, there are moments that my heart will race when something triggers it but now i can remind myself i am ok and calm myself down. it's very rare that i have dreams that frighten me but if i'm really tired sometimes it happens. for the most part tho my spirit is healed by participating in that support group.
does the abuser live near you? is that why you are still in fear?
feel free to pm me anytime if you want to chat.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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