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Berries · Mar 01, 2009, 07:40 PM

i have absolutely no reason to feel this way. but i do.

I feel battered and broken inside. I feel sick. I feel so intensely hurt ,mad, scared, and so many other feelings and so many , many thoughts and just so confused.

I don't get it.

Why am I so damaged and broken? Why can't I function?

Why do I feel this way? Why do I think this way?

And why can't the voice leave me alone?

And why can only the hate get inside me and the love just bounces right off me? Like i have love repellent on, or something.

And why can't I REST??????? And when I can sleep some with the help of pharmaceuticals, why do I have NIGHTMARES and just end up waking up feeling an unrested as before I went to sleep?

I’d just stay awake, but am afraid of what I might do. Why am I so afraid of what I might do?

And why can't people love me and want to be around me only when i am medicated?

And why do irl people creep me out, so much?

I love PC people. They are not creepy. Why are irl people scarey and mean and bad?

And why hasn't my T ever responded to my call for help?

I am confused. So, confused.