Deep Blue Sea in a way i can relate to one thing you mentioned,well several actually.My now ex girlfriend of 4 months accused me of being gay,which i am not,nor i have ever considered it.I am suffering PTSD and have had the fits of anger as well,I have not banged against any walls,put have went into rages,throwing and kicking things,yelling,and cursing.After that i don't recall this but was told i was curled up under the kitchen table,i guess i felt safe under there.Whatever you do,do not jump off a train platform.I hope you went to the ER and got help.Don't make the same mistake i did and think you can deal with it on your own.