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Over the past few years I have lost interest in sex and I find it odd when I'm only 22 years old. Sometimes I just don't have an urge to do it and my partner thinks it's her but I keep trying to assure her it's not. I don’t know what to do about it and I feel as though I'm letting her down. I just don’t feel like sex is something that I have grown out of and I really think maybe I'm afraid if I do it too much maybe ill become too attached I mean I have always tried to stay unattached especially since my last relationship before this I current one I fell in love with a girl thought I had got her pregnant (thank god she wasn't) and then while I was overseas she slept with quite a few other men and I never got the memo till after I got back from a week long mission. I went the rest of the deployment hating and despising women and I felt as though all I wanted to do was just treat ever girl ever interested in me like ****. but I have changed once I met my current girlfriend I started to care again and then a few things went wrong like due to my miss trust I think I pushed her away but I also disliked her because I was paying for everything while we lived together. I have learned that she did start talking to another man for about 3 months while we were together but that was because I started to neglect her because of my emotions towards feeling as though she was using me.
While being in the military, I never trusted women much to tell you the truth. I had gone through watching all my friends cheat on their girlfriends and their girlfriends divorce or cheat on them. so I have never been in an environment where I never saw something that wasn’t distrustful. Could that be what is causing me to not want be so sexually active? I mean I really don’t understand why I don’t have a desire to do anything…
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