Hello:

It saddens us to know that you share in these feelings and difficulties. I do empathize and understand how that feels and know how difficult it can be to make those connections ... how the fear of what others might be thinking about how one responds ... or doesn't respond in those social settings. It's very difficult to learn how to deal with those situations and gain a certain level of comfort in them. The fear can be very overwhelming as can that sense of isolation and loneliness.

Wishing you peace, comfort and resolutions to all the challenges you're facing and trying so hard to contend with: Kefrin