Hmmm. I'm kind of stuck about that one. I'm not going to tell her yet, at least not until I feel able to talk to her about it and until I'm in less of a fragile state, more stable.

I think it's my fault because I've been told all my life it's my fault and nobody elses, that I'm the one to blame for everything and that I should be punished for everything that goes wrong etc etc...

I just had my "alcohol dependency" meeting with Jason, the health and wellbeing champion. Our 6 weeks of meetings is up, but he's decided.... He wants to make ME board member for the YMCA!!! I'm so, so chuffed!! Basically, it means going above the manager of the YMCA, to all the chairmen and governors etc and putting my views across, my ideas, opinions and correcting them if they try to twist/change things that other residents here say and such. So.. I'm like.. :woohoo:

So that's something I'm on a high about, plus, by the end of the week Jason will hopefully have arranged dates for me to do the food hygiene certificate so that I can do some cooking classes here :/ scary stuff, me going from thinking I couldn't cook to being kicked out, living alone and being able to cook anything!! Wicked. My week has started brilliantly so far! Woooo!