Keep holding on. You are not out of options... you might not see any right now, but there are more out there for you.

How long have you been on the venlafaxine? It is really a good drug for many. If it's been several months, then move up in dose or try another one...again!

As for not knowing how long you will live... none of us do. Many of us take one day at a time, gee, sometimes we take one HOUR at a time. It sounds like you are in that state of affairs now.

As you read the posts here you will know how much many members suffer physically and psychologically. Often all we have is the other members here. Come back often, and let us know more about you.