((((((((((turquoisesea))))))))))
I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling lonely
Opening up and talking with people about your feelings is SUCH a hard thing to do as you allow yourself to become completely vulnerable. Its difficult to find those people that you can truly trust... but keep looking because there are people out there who do care about you and who will not judge you or think any differently of you. Fortunately, lots of those people are here at PC. You are already "practicing" by posting on here, and we welcome you with open arms.
It will get easier... I promise
Jacq