Thank you so much for identifying (((Silver)))
(((place))), (((Fuzzy))), (((Monty))), (((Jinsi))) and (((RhysMadison))).

The pain dr and that whole issue is so triggering and terrible. When we went to t afterwards, T brought up how it related to how things were when we were little. T should have known that we were too much a wreck. i don't know why he leaves us in a dangerous place. we made it through somedays but everything is still so much a mess. We're having trouble with acting out of control. H. is angry with me and it gets us so so worse. We need supportive t. now because there's no one to pick up the pieces and i can't calm myself.

Place, my T specializes in DID and has been in that field for a long time- not knowing about DID tx
isn't the problem.
its more like not caring about what happens to me. It feels so bad to have the only support person in real life not be supportive. i've been seeing this T for five years- since my dx.

Monty, i can email T but he just says, "You know what you get with me".(he isn't going to change).
Going to t is the only way i know what parts are thinking and doing- we're so much a mess.- so it's even a worse mess if i don't go to t. i think anyways. It's so upsetting. i don't know why T is so unsupportive.
we called every T on the ISSD and Sidran list in my area and T is the only one who would take me.

RhysMadison and everyone, Thank you for being there. it was too painful to talk about it the last few days. we didn't go to ER, we got by but everything's falling apart at home. H. is angry . The way i act is so out of control because H triggers me.
It's too hard to work on trauma issues when there's present trauma at home and the situation with the pain dr and the pain. Some of my parts don't know what the pain is about- . it's so upsetting. we go through times when we're so upset. Spending money when shouldn't and getting things we didn't order. It's not fair because we didn't remember. It's a confusing mess.
Thank you so much for being there and understanding.
your friend,
kerria