when someone dies or when I am abandoned sometimes, it feels like everything is the same as it's always been. Even if that person was a HUGE part of my life and I saw and spoke to them frequently, and they are no longer there, it is, on some level, like nothing has changed. I know this is not because I don't care for them. I love them. Besides, even if you could care less for someone, it's abnormal not to sense a huge difference when they dissapear from your life if they are a big part of it.

I don't have PTSD, but my whole life, I have supressed a lot of emotions, automatically, and I think this goes along with that. If it's not caused by PTSD, what could it be from?

Also, I was wondering about a friend who had PTSD. They cut me out of their lives. Towards the end, it felt like they had placed such a huge wall between us that I truly believe they would feel closer to a random stranger pulled off the street. Is it possible to block someone to that degree, to where strangers have more of an intimate connection? Even if you don't hate the person? He said he was feeling a lot for me even then, but I am telling you it seemed he was a million miles away and his heart was dead when it came to me. He was a very emotional person. I just need help understanding.