In reply...........

madisgram......

baseline....down deep....when I sit still, ask inside and wait for an answer after praying my ***** off...sleep on it....hurt a little bit.....it comes back infatuation with alcohol............I may not be able to stop that little monster, but I can be aware when he gets to peekin....then let God take over.....I just moved and the food store is ten miles away, but the liquor store is right across the street......LITERALLY..........
over the years, I have recieved Gods' gift of awareness and it is a gift to be practiced everyday. the goal of this post(get it, goal post, Lol,) I feel has been reached, which is to not have these thoughts turn into an obsession or "distortion of values". *(BB,pg.129).

Perna......

Your reply is exactly what I needed....what lies within the confines of reality are the two sides to everything....distortion and clarity....with jacqueline bissets distortion between love and obsession...it helped me to re-gain my own clarity...to define again....the difference between obsession and focus....between....distortion and clarity....dillusion and reality....infatuation and undivided attention......
and with these epigrams, came also the trickery that lies within obsession...the manifestation of obsession where I would least expect...and call it something like love....


....and nowheretorun....

aint that martha and the vendells? no were to hide...baby....
so solution orientated...and so...so....appreciative..........
inwhich brings me back to right here and right now.......
I have just become aware of a new catagory of triggers that lay within music....oh my goodness gracious....I love music and am actually a musician/songwriter...that has not played or practised for thirty some years.......
....and yes.....these past few days have been seriously difficult....a whole new world..........again.........


thanx yall...............ST

*alcoholics anonymous...............or big book