Thank you, Sky- thank you, Fuzzy. It's so easy to think of ourselves as worthless with a dr like that. i don't know what to do about that whole situation because we need pain medicine.

still we haven't bonded with T in anyway- i still don't know if we'll keep the next appt- even after five years. We don't have enough inside of us to manage at these times. My family is really suffering . i came home from t to find the front door wide open and the cat lost. i found the cat and miraculously nothing was stolen but we were a terrible wreck and still are - leaving a mess behind everywhere we go. It's so hard not to hate my parts- so i can't comfort .

i hope that it will be as you said but it doesn't feel like it will now. This T loses patients too i think. i wish there were some kind of help IRL inbetween without resorting to ERs.