my thoughts are in utter chaos.
confusion
trying to sort things out
what is healthy
what is not
what is right
what is wrong
when the sh-- hits the fan
is it always my fault???
what about friends who take advantage
who guilt me
who turn it all around
and lay it on my head

what about friends who are hurting
and i have to process
their pain
and mine

and i feel like nothing is real
and everything is real
and it all hurts
way too much