I do! I journal quite often and i say a lot of the hurtful things in there instead of saying them to her face. Thats a great idea actually and im silly for not doing it since i write in it almost daily. Sometimes it really helps and other times i just work myself up into an angry frenzy but eventually that wears off and it gives me a place to release at least.

I dont have any friends really as i dont enjoy irl humans and like people over at my place even less.

I also tried going to the park earlier today and just being alone and watching two groundhogs(gophers? no idea really) play. It was a nice distraction but then i got home and she was already over it and showing her mom her new hair style lol which foolishly made me angry again(angry in the "sure she chops my heart in half and forgets about it a couple hours later and then dumb me is still fuming/crying" sense).

Anyway im off to vent in the journal, thanks again.