(((madisgram)))

I feel so bad for you. You have been treated very unfairly, and with no love or respect by your sister. She does not deserve your love, your attention or your time. Not one more minute of your concern should be spent on her. What she has done to you is horrible.

What you need to do is forgive yourself and understand that you truly did not deserve this treatment. You have not done anything wrong. All you have done is try too hard to love and accept and believe in a sister who did not deserve the love, concern and the many chances to do the right thing that you gave her. Accept that you will never get that money from her, or anything else worthwhile. I'm sure this will take some time, it's like a grieving process, that you will have to go through.

And it's just terrible that a nice person like you has to deal with so much pain and other negative feelings. But that's the only way through this, is to feel all the bad feelings until you are able to forgive yourself, your sister and let it all go. It's really not fair.