Thanks everyone for you feedback! It is greatly appreciated! I was diagnosed with BPD in Dec of 04 and then shortly into the new year diagnosed with DID as well!
I haven't learned how to communicate with the rest of me (my parts) but I'm trying! They seem to have a mind of their own right now and don't wanna talk to me Everything is very confusing for me b/c this is all so new to me! I am a VERY scared person right now!
My T also said to me that I shouldn't be doing any research about either of my diagnosis until I see her again in a month b/c it may trigger me! How I am NOT suppose to research about something that has to do with ME? She says I should concentrate on "mindfulness" to try and better understand myself!
I like my T and she does allow me to call her if I need to! I would get another T but I am being referred to a specialist who specifically helps people with BPD/DID and should begin to see him soon....I hope!
I do have support from my partner of 4yrs and she is understanding of everything that has happened! She has told me that she has been in contact with my other parts and my partner is still standing by my side...that must count for something!
The only thing that helps me to cope right now is Ativan! It mellows me out but for the most part it makes me like duuuuuuh!
I have started to journal, but it doesn't seem to be doing much good!
If ANYONE has any suggestions about ANYTHING could you please let me know?!!! Thanks!

~ Kendra ~