Thank you, nowheretorun. That was an inspiring read.

I'm trying to keep my health as good as I possibly can, it's not going so well, though..
I've taken the day off college, Connor's not happy about it at all, in fact he seems quite p*ssed off with me about it tbh. I just feel like complete and utter s**t today. I wouldn't function well in college at all. I'd be a mess and then I'd have to go home anyway.

Tom's been trying to make me smile. He always comes over to me and says "come on woman, smile!" and tries to push my face into a smile. It doesn't last long. I don't even realise just how depressed I look, just how.. How little I smile. it's horrible. I wish I could just smile. But it's just not that simple.