((((hugs))))) to you Lynn!
You can get help for others - depending upon your personal beliefs and whether or not you have support of family or friends.
In my opinion, it is unthinkable that you should have to live in this misery for another 10 years, for the sake of the children. Your children can pick up on your misery now. That can be rather painful and confusing for them. Please reach out for help to family, friends, and/or government assistance. I wish that I new of programs up there, but I don't. Hopefully, someone who does will respond to your post.
I wish you the very best


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Shez