Next week is my daughter's birthday. She will be 28. I have not seen or talked to her in over 5 years now. I still am not sure why she chose to break off any contact with me, and I have tried to ask her. I have tried to contact her and communicate with her. But no response from her. So eventually I just left her alone, that seems to be what she wants. I'm not even sure where she is living right now. I know very little about her or her life. It hurts really bad.

When she first stopped talking to me I thought, naturally, that she was angry about something and eventually things would work themselves out. But that has not happened. About a year ago it began to really sink in that I might never see or hear from my daughter again. I have been in a lot of pain since then, especially around the holidays, her birthday and Mother's Day.

I have a very deep desire to at least see her one more time to hug her and say good bye. It hurts soooooooo much.