some improvement is certainly better then being completely stuck in reverse. at least now i know what i need to work on and i'm plodding forward slowly. it's really frustrating, i feel like i should be getting 'better' faster.

had a long day, new approaches are being tried out and new ways of doing things, it's hard to adjust to change and i'm trying not to let the negatives and the unknowns spoil what progress i've made. never good to dwell on the bad i suppose. trying to keep myself occupied with what i've done right,

though at times it just feels like i'm trying to deny all this messed up stuff i don't get

there's a lot of stuff about DID that i always want to ask my therapist but i'm too shy or scared to